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by 4myeyesonly
( 21, Female from Georgia, USA )
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Change.
04-21-11 07:01 PM
I don't know why I'm so angry. I got what was coming. I guess I just expect people (adults...assistant managers) to be adults. To act their age. To be honest and forward. To have respect and be respected and most of all to be decent. Instead, I get used. I knew what it was from the beginning. But he used me..he fucked me then threw me to the side when he knew this cute girl from work thought he was cute. He won't talk to me, won't text, call, deleted me off facebook. Hell, he won't even look at me at work. You know someone's fucking ashamed if they can't do that and he should be ashamed. Why lie? Why act that way? You're 24 years old. You are an assistant manager. You live on your own. You're a fucking adult. Why lead someone along just long enough to have sex with them then dump them? Who does that? =/. Apparently I'm naive. I feel like a damn idiot. And I'm angry. I could ruin his reputation. Probably get him fired if I want to. But I won't. That would bring me to his level and I refuse to be that person. I refuse to act like a child. Fuck him.
On another note, since I've written I've been promoted and gotten a raise. I'm still making shit money, but I'm happy that I'm doing my job well enough that in 6 months I've gotten as far as I have. I've worked my fucking ass off for it. Conceited, but I fucking deserve it. Fuck everyone else that thinks I don't. I finally filled out my application for a local university. I just need to put in all my debit card info and submit that mofo. They have a pre-veterinary medicine major. I'm going to do it. I'm going to be what I want to be. Support myself. I'm not going to let anyone (including me) stop me. I want to be optimistic. I am trying to be optimistic. I'm going to change.
On another note, since I've written I've been promoted and gotten a raise. I'm still making shit money, but I'm happy that I'm doing my job well enough that in 6 months I've gotten as far as I have. I've worked my fucking ass off for it. Conceited, but I fucking deserve it. Fuck everyone else that thinks I don't. I finally filled out my application for a local university. I just need to put in all my debit card info and submit that mofo. They have a pre-veterinary medicine major. I'm going to do it. I'm going to be what I want to be. Support myself. I'm not going to let anyone (including me) stop me. I want to be optimistic. I am trying to be optimistic. I'm going to change.
Current Music: Kill the Director by The Wombats.
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