The amount of things going on is unreal.

I'm at my aunts now about 2 hours from my house. I love being here. It's like family is supposed to be. I'm basically here because in the past month I've basically become my mother's emotional punching bag. She's been having a lot of psychosis/paranoia issues and it's torn our family apart. Not just me, her and Dave but everyone. My grandparents, aunt, uncle. It's tearing everyone up. Dave isn't even at our house anymore. He's back in Louisiana with my grandparents..his parents. We've been to the ER between her and dave 4 times in the past month. Money is now an issue because dave filled out our government reimbursement and she thinks that he tried to claim too much. It's just such a nightmare. Every single little thing. I don't know anyone that's been through all this, but you can't even imagine. I'm having a hard time dealing with it myself which is why I'm not home and I probably won't be going home. We don't really know if she's taking the medicine that she's supposed to be taking. My uncle is there now, but he's leaving today so she'll be alone for awhile. Maybe that'll convince her. I truly do want her to get better, but this is going to take a long time for me to move past. Our relationship is going to change for forever if we even have one in the long run.

I feel like such an asshole though. She's my mother and I should be more patient right? Ugh. I just don't even care anymore. I'm tired of being accused of everything. Apparently I'm spying on her for the dr's office and I'm telling people to watch her. I'm also doing things to create reactions out of her..according to her. It's absolutely..well..crazy. That's probably not the best word to use but there's no rationalizing with her and it's hard to find another word to use.

I dunno. I just wanna walk away and never look back. I feel like an asshole..but yeah. I hope everyone is well though. I thought I'd update you all since yall asked if everything was ok.