booya adam! i win.

oh what fun! 

i just want to see how long it takes him to realize that he still has the password for this journal, and to use it!

i'm clapping my hands with glee right now!  hahahhaha.

oh i'm such a bitch.

 

Anyway, because this is sexqueen, i must write something...

 

i almost thought about writting about how i lost my virginity.

but it wasn't all that great, so i won't.

I had a dream about that last night.  it was my memories of that night (what i have) and then, while he was on top of me, it morphed into someone coming to my rescue... i won't say who my someone was. 

and although he was mad at me for being out there, he said he loved me, wrapped me in a blanket, and carried me home. 

he carried me up to my room, layd me in my bed, and held me.

 

sooooo, needless to say, i'm a romantic.

and whats funny, is i regret jeff, but i dont.

i wish it would have been with someone else.

but i'm kinda glad it was with jeff too, because it would have been really bad if it were someone else and i was that BAD.

yeah.

i think i was bad.

and one of my worst fears now is being really bad.

anyone else right now would be like "all the more reason to practice."

but not me.

why is it that i can make me cum better than jeff could.

not better.

sorry.

FASTER.

jeff couldn't make me at all.

funny.

but i guess me saying no kinda had to do with it too.

 

Justin says i'm retarded for thinking like this. 

YEAH i told justin .

won't tell adam, but i'll tell justin.

haha.

and its not that i love justin.

its that justin and i were actually having a conversation that didnt revolve around his hands on my thighs!

and justin honestly wanted to know about it.

he wanted to know about Jeff and i.

 

my head hurts and i really really want to take a shower

or maybe a bath...

mmmmm. a bath sounds nice huh?

with bubbles,

and soft music.

and the only light coming in from the skylight.

it would be better if i had one tonight though. 

because then i can have candles floating in the water instead of bubbles.

or i could line the counter with actual candles and leave the bubbles. 

and that would be the only light. 

 

mmmm.   only one thing could make this thought process better.

hahahahaha.

oh adam, i love you.  hahahaha.

 

 

ON another note, i can't wait to go to the beach.

for vacation.

in june.

i'll miss the last week of school, but who cares?

Why was i thinking about it?

because at the beach,

you have the pool,

the hot tub,

the big showers,

and the huge bathtubs that fit like 10 people.

ok, that's an over exageration.

more like 2. 

but that, my dear, is beside the point.

 

I can't wait to go down when Em gets married too.

that will be fun.

but spending more than a day with aunt cathe?

not so fun! 

ewch, my whole body just cracked when i stretched.

mmmm.

attractive!

 

ok.

so i'm leaving.

this was just to get to adam, see what he would do.

 

Because ilove him.

and he knows it.

hahahahah.

 

Always,

The Queen.