Digital Expressions

The Lover - Alesana ♥

jaminator♥ — Sat, 13 Mar 2010 21:31:05 -0500

Is it her, could it be, should my eyes believe what they see If you are who I think you are I might lose my mind Just a kiss, from her lips and I would simply float away. The way her hips swing back and forth I've got butterflies Dead girls don't just appear out of thin air But I am victim to her sinister stare. Please don't hate me for what I've done Run away with me, I'll be everything that you need Such a pretty girl screams to me, Take my hand, take my breath away What if my heart breaks again? take my breath away Just the scent of her skin Unlocks forbidden memories The slightest graze of fragile hand I've got butterflies Dead girls don't just appear out of thin air But I am victim to her sinister stare. Please don't hate me for what I've done Run away with me, I'll be everything that you need Such a pretty girl screams to me, Take my hand, take my breath away I'll be your anchor, I'll be your lover I'll be your anchor, I'll be your lover And if your heart is filled with doubt I'll bear my soul to you belle! Please don't hate me for what I've done Run away with me, I'll be everything that you need Such a pretty girl screams to me, Take my hand, take my breath away I can't lose you again... I can't lose you again... I can't lose you again... I'm nothing without you. I'll never let you down I'll never let you down I'll never let you down Angel

Mm, spaghetti.

imperfection.x — Sat, 13 Mar 2010 21:24:15 -0500

I worked from 7-3:30 today,
and it surprisingly went by super fast,
and I really wasn't that worn out by it.
I enjoyed myself, actually. [:
Maybe it was the caffeine. xD

My dad made spaghetti for dinner.
It was delicious.
MMMMM.

I kinda don't feel good now. :\
Blehh.

I need to figure out what I wanna
paint for my next painting. For painting class, that is.
From my understanding, it can be basically anything.
AHHH.

crazy dream ♥

jaminator♥ — Sat, 13 Mar 2010 21:23:27 -0500

i had the weirdest dream the other night in it there were a bunch of dogs being stolen & noone had any idea who was doing it or where the dogs were there were 100s of dogs missing. i wake up one morning and my michael is missing. so i randomly to decide to go to the lake to look for him. i come upon a ledge at the lake and stand at the edge and look down & i find 100s of dogs & trash bags the dogs were in a pile, smoking. someone had caught the dogs on fire and not all the dogs were completely burnt or even dead i saw jade (mkvd'a dog) in the pile and shes was burnt in some spots and she was shaking violently at the top of the pile was my dog michael and his entire body was burnt away but his head, and his collar was there i freak out and jump on top of the pile to get michael & i woke up my legs were covered in sweat it bothered me to the point i had to get up and see if my dogs were alive

"I know a thing or two about books, and that's a book".

drop dead gorgeous — Sat, 13 Mar 2010 21:22:53 -0500

LMAO just discovered PotterPuppetPals.
Teehee =P
Gigglefit.

Me and Ray went to the giant cosmetic sale @ASB stadium yesterday.
Then walked to OneTreeHill
and then to Onehunga.
Soo tiring, but SO much fun.
I cbb writing everything though.
Mum and me bought $200 worth of stuffs.
[coz I went again with her later]

Today, I got a new pair of boots.
Black leather knee-highs.
Sweet.
And painted some of the fence.
Scored $20 bucks.
~~Might clean my room later.~~
Nah, prolly not.
LMAO! I'm seriously soooo lazy though.
Grr uni tomorrow. =/

At least I finish @12.

OOh watched the Telephone vid.
Yum, delish. Love it.
How many people can rock cigarette sunglasses, really.
Only Teh GaGa.

"we did it honey B"
=]
Loves it,.

Anyways I'm off to do my nails, etc.
Read Percy Jackson.

Toodles Poodlez

friday five

amonkeylovinchik — Sat, 13 Mar 2010 20:49:42 -0500

The Friday Five [ http://digitalexpressions.nu/diary/the%20friday%20five ]

1. Name 3 green things around you.
these words.. HAHA part of the sims 3 case, and ... umm... the envelope box!

2. What's your favorite thing that is green?
trees they help me breathe haha

3. What is your favorite food that is green?
pickles!

4. What can make you green with envy?
money..

5. In what ways are you 'Going Green'?
less water, les electricity. lots of stuff

Fun times

wukie — Sat, 13 Mar 2010 18:58:57 -0500

So since matt's bday was on thursday - we took the day off. Spent thursday pretty much sitting around watching matt play Ghostbusters on the Wii and putzing around on the computer while he watched the DVD I got him on one of his bands. Had SONIC for lunch SOOOOOOOOOOO LOVELY. I seriously would become a horribly morbidly obese individual if that thing was closer. so yummy. Then we had mexican from some restaurant around by us. Pretty good. The mexican rice though tasted like heartburn so i didn't eat that but my veggie burrito thinger that I got was lovely Friday we ALSO took off (amazing!) because we were in the need for 2 separate inspectors from the township to check out the work we got done for the furnace. Got it done months ago and finally getting it inspected (took a while to get the inspection paperwork from the company that did the work - they filed the paperwork with the township). That went well. Then we went to the Devils/Penguins game. Interesting game. Lots of fighting. Some really strange calls on the side of the refs but whatever... Penns lost (boo!) but we still had a good time. We went with Kiefy, Rob, Meesh, Jen and Jen's sister and her fiancee. Last night I barely slept so i spent the whole day today exhausted. Then super pissed because there was a long list of things that I wanted to get done today that I could not get done because it's super super windy here. I mean there are gusts to like 40+ mph maybe higher but i can say at least that. Anyway... horrible. So with that and the rain I don't want to go to places like Home Depot and pick up the things i need. Don't want to get beat with wind. So instead i've sat around the house, listed a few things on Freecycle that have been sitting in the one bedroom and working on the puppies that I'm making for a friend of mine. Been doing this all day and i feel like i seriously need a nap. I want to go to the dr for fatigue and muscle ache. Not sure what's wrong with me but I am beat as all hell and have been for months. The muscle ache and weakness has been more recently. We're having a party next week and I went from really looking forward to it to not looking forward to it at all. People suck

♫ You Make It Real ♫

paradisegil — Sat, 13 Mar 2010 18:52:56 -0500

Did a couple songs for me lovely lady friend (whose story I shall be filling you all on sometime soonish!) and decided to post one of them here. Extremely cheesy, very silly yet so fun. Enjoy!

James Morrison ~ You Make It Real

There's so much craziness surrounding me,
There's so much going on it gets hard to breath
When all my faith has gone you, bring it back to me,
You make it real for me

Well I'm not sure of my priorities,
I've lost sight of where im meant to be
And like holy water washing over me,
You make it real for me

And I am running to you baby,
You are the only one who saves me
That's why I've been missing you lately,
'Cause you make it real for me

When my head is strong, but my heart is weak,
I'm full of arrogance and uncertainty
When I can't find the words, you teach my heart to speak,
You make it real for me

And I am running to you baby,
You are the only one who saves me
That's why I've been missing you lately,
'Cause you make it real for me

Everybody's talking in words I don't understand,
You got to be the only one, who knows just who I am
And you're shining in the distance,
I hope I can make it through
Cause the only place that I want to be is right back home with you

I guess there's so much more I have to learn,
But if you're here with me, I know which way to turn
You always give me somewhere, somewhere I can learn,
You make it real for me

And I am running to you baby,
Cause you are the only one who saves me
That's why I've been missing you lately,
'Cause you make it real for me
You make it real for me

I despise formals

talicia — Sat, 13 Mar 2010 18:41:05 -0500

So, I was debating whether or not I was going to attend a formal tonight. I knew that I would eventually convince myself not to go -- again. However, I do have a valid excuse, since I have quite a bit of work to do here at my job. I guess I really dislike the thought of having to dress up and feel stupid for a few hours and have people staring at me. It's not worth it. But I do feel bad, because I've kinda pushed my friends to the side, because I have "issues". Plus, the weather looks so sick. It dampens the mood, you know? And I don't understand why everything has to be sleeveless. I have STRETCHMARKS people. But naturally, someone designing a formal gown is 9 times out of 12 not going to think about that. I would have opted for a pants suit, but I found some of the jackets to be too short and wouldn't suffice for covering my big hips. Thus, no loss of money or pride with my absence to a special event. Anyway, I hope to get the materials for my merchandising assignments soon. That's almost 10 stores, that I will have to do, and I'm glad because I NEED, NEED the money. But they've (the client) already changed the dates up. I have other things to do, besides try to work around someone else's schedule who doesn't care about the inconvenience it may cause to an employee. I shouldn't complain though, because it's not the company I work for that's the cause of my frustration. I really do adore this merchandising company. They are really great, and I'm so glad I found them. I may try to reapply with another one soon, because they also have the choice to accept/decline projects. I just never could get any work from them before, so I just resigned. But I'm willing to give it another chance, because I NEED, NEED money. I wish I actually had money. That would be nice. I work way too much to have so little. Teardrop falling. I haven't replaced my virus strucken laptop yet, but I did get my money for it the other day. I just sent it in for cash. That's awesome, because now of course, I can go buy another one. Plus, I may get a couple of other electronics (all black) for my room. Can't wait to go shopping!

i'll write all about it later but...

ember — Sat, 13 Mar 2010 18:11:27 -0500

for now heres some pics i took :)

the path to calm

blackjoker0 — Sat, 13 Mar 2010 18:02:47 -0500

I love simon and garfunkel the suple rymes they sing calms my soul. I mean seriously its so mellow you could just drift away

Ear thermometer?

that1girldreaming — Sat, 13 Mar 2010 17:28:09 -0500

Do any of the moms use one of these?

I bought one from Target and I really like it, but I'm finding tonight it's not giving me an accurate reading. It's been saying around 98.4ish but when I used the regular thermometer it said 101.4. And he's definitely warm.

Maybe I'm doing it wrong? I learned how to do it in school so I thought I was doing it right. Maybe I will ask at the urgent care if there is something I am doing wrong.

Anywho - I'm taking Shaun in tonight because I'm pretty sure he has an ear infection. He has been rubbing his left ear a lot today, and his cough is not getting better. Poor bebe!

<3 Jamie Lee

sitting in a hotel in canada

j mo — Sat, 13 Mar 2010 17:20:02 -0500

Something is wrong with me. All I can think now is about what he said. I want to run far away from this situation... which is a bit hard because I am sitting right now directly in the middle of it. And I can't go anywhere. . .. . . . . I don't want to think these thoughts anymore. For some reason going back to being alone is the only way I can feel ok. This was probably a very big mistake. The thing is... I know exactly why I did this. I was hurt, I'll admit that. I wanted the pain to go away. I needed something to prevent myself from texting and missing him. I needed a barrier to make me stop caring about him. And did that work? Ha, I guess not at all. In fact it gave me an excuse to keep talking about him. Crazy crazy crazy..... I will get over it. Drinking helps. Need to loose this boy though. Good thing he is leaving in a week anyway.

confession

windgirl — Sat, 13 Mar 2010 16:58:39 -0500

I confess I'd like to

do things with you

that send catholics

to confession

getting concerned.

ember — Sat, 13 Mar 2010 16:33:38 -0500

Granted, we HAD to move here to just get OUT OF MY PARENTS HOUSE. yes, theres that. But im starting to wonder about this place. well, not this place. but the people in this place. Ive started hearing horror stories about the manager and i believe it, ive heard her out in the halls a couple times. The things I hear when im in the halls kind of take me by surprise. theres a LOT Of drinkers here, smokers and SWEARERS! people here are loud and crass. its starting to literally freak me out. Right now, theres a bunch of bikers swearing, smoking and drinking with loud music blaring out of apartment 1. granted, theres ALWAYS music blaring from apartment 1 but its extra loud this afternoon. I dont want to complain because...i dont know how common it is to happen. theres no smoke buckets so people just throw their butts on the ground and its disgusting. I SO want this place to work for us. I SO want this place to be our home and be able to raise our kids here. Why are there so many creepy people here!??! im scared of what we've gotten ourselves into. im scared of moving again. I DONT WANT TO MOVE AGAIN!! im half a something away from having a full blown panic attack and hyperventilating. IM TRYING to stay positive. To just see how things go this spring. Clean up the yard, see how things go. but im honestly scared to death this place will be the worst nightmare yet. YOu shouldnt have to be rich to live in a nice neighborhood with neighbors who dont beat eachother up and have drinking parties in their 40's. i dont see this place working out if what ive seen so far is a good example of how things seem to go around here.... Im staying positive though...praying... and hoping God can turn this apparent mess into something more than beautiful.

I dont want to dress like a teen celebrity thank you

ember — Sat, 13 Mar 2010 14:26:29 -0500

whats with all the clothing lines created after celebs? i dont especially want to dress like mylie cyrus or whatever. Anyway, today I got my camcorder! yay! (it was even on sale!) annnnnnd i might have gotten a couple tops and jeans. now, I have ONE PAIR OF JEANS THAT FIT> so give me a break- im not a shopaholic. I just really need SOME cloths until I can fit into my old ones again. trust me-id rather have my old clothes than have to shop for new fatter ones. BUT-it does just feel nice to FIT into some nice clothes again. its a lift, an upper, ya know? Its really nice and im glad I took the time(gosh i hate hate hate shopping and trying on clothes!) to find 3 tops and two pairs of jeans. some sundresses (for over jeans) and two cami tops for underneath the shirts because shirts just dont cover boobs like they should. It took me ten minutes to try things on and pick out everything. yeah, i know, im good. :P adams gone all day with the guys to Fondy to get some dice or something. so he'll be gone a good chunk of the day. we might get a movie tonight. NO MORE ORDERING OUT! :P besides, we got lots of good grocery food so i'll be doing some cookin; this evening. on other news, adam does not want honey to come live with us again :( this made me soooooooo sad. I hope something works out so my sister can keep her..... i feel so awful inside about the whole thing. well,I gotta put caleb down for a nap...

Lower your eyelids to die with the sun.

remainder — Sat, 13 Mar 2010 12:05:12 -0500

This week has seriously been so great. Last night was no exception. I took my car into the shop where Bozzy works & we installed the coilovers....ugh my car looks sexy now. I wish I went a little bit lower...but for now this works. Plus I'm running 15" tires, so it doesn't look as low as it really is. Plus it looks lower when it's actually on the road driving, which is pretty neat. At first we put the coils all the way down to see how low it would get, and we couldn't even get the lift pads out from underneath the car...it was ridiculous. Pretty funny, too. Adam texted Bozzy to see what he was doing and he told Adam that he was putting the coils on my car, and 10 minutes later, we hear Adam's car. Big surprise there lol. We all chilled for awhile and it was actually really nice. Adam kept giving me those fucking looks, ugh. He wanted me to go over to his house after I left the shop. I was thinking about it. Did I go? NOPE! I'm so proud of myself. I could tell Bozzy was hinting at an invitation over to my place after the shop cause he said he didn't want to go home. Did I ask him over? NOPE! hahahaaa oh it felt good. But yeah, so my car is at a good height right now, both Bozzy & Adam agree it's mad chill & I value their opinions when it comes to VWs. It's not stock, but it's not slammed. I dig it, now I just need some wheels. Pics attached.

I spent the night at Rennell's place Thursday, it was great. He picked me up around 6pm, we went back to his place & chilled for a bit, talked. Then we went food shopping and came back, he cooked dinner, we listened to some music & I downloaded some stuff for him, then we just kissed and snuggled up and had some of our own fun :) ugh it was so great, it's so perfect being with him. I'm falling for his charm and it's bugging me, I feel like a sucker lol. But I don't want to get my hopes up & I don't want to rush into thinking things. Just gotta play it cool.

I was telling my friend Jen a little bit about him, and right off the bat, all she could say was "he's a player." Ummm what? First of all, she hasn't even met him yet, 2nd of all, I haven't even told her the whole story of how him & I hung out and how happy I was when I was with him. Right off the bat she calls him a player?! Not cool. I was pissed so I was just like "right..." and then, of course, she turned it back around to be about her so she goes "well i really liked jeremy and sean but you bad mouthed them" & blah blah blah. Now that's a different situation because 1) I knew those people and she told me all about her situations with them & 2) every time she talked to me about them she had something bad to say. she never said how happy they made her or how they treated her so amazingly. none of that, she only had negative things to say, so what was I supposed to think? But whatever, I was really pissed that she just judged him right away like that. If I had told her about all the stuff that happened and she had met him and then she decided to call him a player, then that's fine, whatever...but not when you know nothing of what's going on. I was just looking for "i'm happy for you, that's so great" from my best friend & I just got negative feelings. Whatever.

I'm going over to Rennell's again today, around 2pm or so. He wants to see me & my car soooo yeah :) I called him this morning after I woke up cause he wanted me to, he sounds so cute in the morning. Today should be a nice, relaxing & rainy day.

Yesterday was also Stephen's birthday & I'm proud of myself cause I didn't even realize it until later on in the day & I didn't let it affect my day. I still had a fucking great day yesterday. That makes me so happy :) I was really bumming out about him last week. Really bummed. But now...I'm so over it. It's not worth it, I've found people who make me happy and one in particular. I'm done letting his happiness make me miserable.

My car is almost how I'd like it to be, I've got a new boy & things are going great with him & I just feel good.

This is wonderful.

Oh, no!

all_mixed_up — Sat, 13 Mar 2010 11:51:16 -0500

Day two with a scratchy throat and now my nose is stuffy/runny! I just want to pout all day but I have errands to run and people to see today. I need to run to the store and pick up a few things and then go to the post office. I think they close really early today and I know they are not open tomorrow but I am pretty sure the UPS store allows you to ship using USPS packaging and pricing and they are open later. I am sending a friend who is in the middle of the ocean a care package of her favorite granola and other healthy snacks. At noon I am meeting a few friends and afterward I am going to try to get everyone together for lunch. Sometime in between I need to do laundry, study, and exercise. It would be nice to go swimming today.

thank the gods!

brokensalvation — Sat, 13 Mar 2010 11:39:58 -0500

So Trent went to bed early last night and slept in this morning. Holy fucking difference batman. The little extra sleep was huge. But also part of my issue yesterday was I was super hormonal and snappy. I've never had pms before, but I guess I do now that I'm on the pill, cause yesterday afternoon I stormed upstairs to grab something and realized that I had my period. Then everything fell into place. I do have to say, I'd rather get a few hours of uber bitch, than a week of cramps so bad I'm in a ball crying. Right now Trent's eating his breakfast while I write out a list for Wally World. (Walmart for those who never heard it. I had to explain that one at Jebus House) so far it's Diapers Wipes Detergent Fabric softener diaper genie refill if I feel like it. That thing is weird. and I'm gonna look for Pool Hall Junkies (highly highly highly doubt it's there, but I fucking love that movie) and Fred has never seen it, so double <3 I have a mountain of a zit on my chin and it fucking hurts like a bastard. Damn you hormones. I'm in a rather pleasant mood today, total opposite of yesterday haha

pretty cool

basicgenius — Sat, 13 Mar 2010 11:32:16 -0500

This is another guy I went to high school with who's making it big in country music. It's so weird, coming from such a small town. People joke about it, saying that there's nothing else to do around here, growing up, so everyone learns to play the guitar and sing.

I like this video, because so much of it is shot here...on the streets, and at our high school...the gym, the football stadium, and I'm not sure, but I think some of the shots are even from our auditorium.

David Nail More CMT Music More CMT Music Videos

oh fudge!

ember — Sat, 13 Mar 2010 10:58:12 -0500

Well.....adam had friday off so of course-we ended up getting pizza and a movie! shame on me! I ate WAY TOO MUCH! i would definitely call it all out binge eating, it was horrible. of course, i had a 2lb gain this morning at weigh in. boo on me! Not discouraged, I did my shredding dvd and am going to go on my jog in like 10 minutes for another 20-30 minutes. AND-no pigging out anymore! im mad at myself for undoing 3 days of hard work with one meal so when we go grocery shopping today im getting all healthy options for me the rest of the week. Im a little irked at myself, but Im not going to get discouraged about it. im just going to keep on trucking on- with my dvd and jog EVERY DAY for at least this month- probably weaving in some of the other workout dvds I got. I have PLENTY OF options to keep me from getting bored. and hopefully-my body will stop aching in constant pain and I can think about doing more than just the one dvd. right now its all i can do to get through it. ALTHOUGH- this morning, I found some of the harder workouts EASIER! :D perhaps it was all the pizza calories giving me extra energy! lol! im off on my jog now! Iim going to really push it-maybe if im lucky i'll shed those extra 2 lbs soon. bad news is my stand and bench came with my piano and the urge to spend all free time playing piano. im resisting the obsession!!!